aLWaYS BeLieVe iN uRSeLF

2006-04-26T17:21:00.000-07:00

haiz...hate it went plans are ruined.had everything planned wif frens n ppl i never tok to b4(zul's frens)and evrything is running smoothly,until the baby ktm buat hal...kenapalah nak uat hal time2 gini....so ended up zul nid to kuarkan money to hantar the 'baby go doc'...so gone lah arnd 500+....sat we gonna go amik the bike and hopefully its all in good shape...
sch sch sch...3 weeks going to passed soon,next week after labour day will be the reopening of a new term at sch...cant wait to meet the giler peeps...but before that labour day,going to celebrate zul's bday.not sure yet where but we have things planned....met up wif angah n achik dat day...3 org yg 30 org....mulut satu2 mcm 'pantat ayam' haha ader je benda kite nk citer...ketawe2 till airmata pun meleleh2 hehe...sat together till arnd 8 b4 i had to go off since zul's fetching me...miss hanging out wif ph CWP peeps....last we had it was last month i tink.hopefully gonna have it again real soon....

2005-11-21T21:47:00.000-08:00

2005-07-20T12:45:00.000-07:00

haiz...relationship is nice.but it really hurt sometimes...for the both of us,we may seem happy,taking pics together here n there but we also do have our daily arguments.but the great side of it is that,we'll have the arguments settled in no time.both of us knows that putting aside our ego is the best thing to do...n like we both said earlier if,we were to ever separate,the reason will always due to 'ego'....well,last nite we had a realli huge fite about something wawa said n something yoyo commented...but still,no point pulling face n ignoring your loved ones,we decided it should be forgiven n forgotten...its 1yr 5mths n going,we are not gonna stop it rite here.......so ppl pray for us to be together till eternity.kwak kwak kwak....

2005-05-03T11:22:00.000-07:00

The Bday boy wif the Bday Cake

The Bday boy wif the Bday Present
to view more pictures just click on the link 'my pics page'
in the links section below...

2005-05-03T09:41:00.000-07:00

our weekend was great.finally get to surprise zul on his birthday.yup his bday was last sunday,1st may(labour day)...so morning he went out wif his friends n i went out wif mine.met him at around 5.30pm kat dobi ghaut bab da promise die nak mamam ice cream kat swensen.but we fite.both no moods so went to PS walk2 here n der,zul play games den had our dinner.then the best part came which zul has no idea wat.brot him to swensen.once we sat,zul pun told me he want the merry mint ice cream n den he wants to go home.so i told him ok,wait for the waitress to take our order.but he didnt know that actually i've already reserved him an ice cream cake(cookies N cream) n wanted it to be served as a surprise together wif his present.1 waitress were carrying a cake n another one carrying a big blue gift box.zul kept looking at them,telling me how wonderful it would be if someone do that to him.well,he tot that the cake n the gift is for someone else whos celebrating their bday as well,so den the waitress put the cake and the gift on our table n wish zul happy bday before the whole restaurant went silent for awhile n sang the happy bday song to faizrul...haha should have taken his pic during that time.muke member blur giler macam orng terperanjat n after that he smile non stop sampai kite balik lolx....well it started off bad but end up well

2005-04-29T10:14:00.000-07:00

a girlfren of mine msg me yesterday n suddenly tok to me about baju pengantin n kursus kahwin haha...oh my god!my fren is getting married.cant believe it sia.well,if YOU are reading dis,YOU noe i'm toking abt u girl...haha aku bukan main2 smlm tapi aku btol terkejut.well ape2 pun girl aku doakan agar rumahtangga korg berkekalan sampai ke anak cucu dan hingga ke akhir hayat.haiz...ingatkan aku sorg yg tak sabar nak kahwin,rupanye ader yg da set date nak kahwin pun haha...

2005-04-27T10:22:00.000-07:00

blah blah blah...nyek nyek nyek...i dont give a fuck,i dont give a damn!cry,say,do wat u want.i dont care if ur offended...all the talking shit is no use.ur not happy just say,we'll meet up n say things face to face cos passing msgs in the blogpage is crap...but i dont tink i wanna see u anymore,oh please.tak ingin....so just have the balance of $165 paid up n we can go our separate ways.i wont bother u anymore....its funny wen ppl lend someone money n the owner have to go after the person who borrow it cos the person has no initiative to infrom u whether they can pay up anot.fucking shit sia...n pls go pay up other ppl's hutang cos they have been msging me,complaining to me.but soory i dont give a fuck anymore.all i know is u'll settle all my money back in 2 months time...."2 months tak cukup?ain tak fikir ke aku tak keje?"....i dont give a damn!the money should have selelsai during ur work time but since aku diam n tak mintak pape,wah...ko pun pijak kpale aku...keje kau enjoy je,duit org tak bayar...so wen i say 2 months,i mean 2 months..

2005-04-27T09:58:00.000-07:00

asal kau terasa yang aku nak rembat kau?bagus ar.ketawa berape byk kau nak.its none of my prob asal kan aku tau aku dpt duit aku balik.n tolong jgn nak mintak simpati kat matair aku k.btw bukan die yang nak pakai duit,aku yang nak pakai.die ckp gitu supaya kau stop buat muka merepek kau n nangis all the way...ah,cakap byk pat blog pun tak guna,aku taknak byk cakap daripada buat.nanti org kate aku cakap tak serupe bikin so jgn sampai aku nampak muka kau pat luar k.cah loh bayteh

2005-04-25T11:00:00.000-07:00

know wat?...so fucking pissed rite now?biasalah kan,orang diam2,pijak kepala...too many chances given,orang amik kesempatan...please k,i dont care you wanna cry,complain or wat so ever tok shit behind my back,mintak simpati dari orang to show that aku ni tak berhati perut ke ape,go ahead becos as far as i'm concern i dont need you as my fren...not worth it.not worth it at all.kalau kau nak tau,orang sume hypokrit.depan kau dorang layan padahal kau tak tau ke orang benci dengan kau.aku da lama simpan benda2 ni sume.n finally i get the chance to say it.kau la yang selalu susahkan hidup aku,jealous of aku tak tentu pasal.n skrg ni aku da tak peduli kau nak buat ape n nak cakap ape dengan orang pasal aku sebab aku dah malas nak layan.biar orang kate aku jahat,aku akan make sure dorang dapat tau sape yang jahat,sape yang bermuka muka..
kau takyah msg aku untuk berbual crap cos aku dah taknak dengar ape2.yang aku tau kau msg aku bilang aku bila kau leh settle hutang aku.aku nye bil 600+ aku tak bayar pasal aku bayar hutang orang dulu.tapi kau,nak senang kan diri je.wat the fucK!n bukan hutang aku je.i speak for everyone,tolong bayar hutang2 dorang sume.jgn nak mintak simpati takde duit la,takde keje lar...USAHA!enjoy bole!!fuck!i'm so in a bad mood!.....ni lah akibat nye kalau diam je.last2orang pijak kepala!...sape yang terasa bagus!

2005-04-14T17:10:00.000-07:00

i'm sick rite now.in real pain.last week acompany my aunt go poly cause shes having a real bad backaches n now i myself having it.damn it man!cant describe the pain.cant bend,cant sit...had MC...3 days never go werk.well,1 of the day is my off day the other 1,i went but half way.tapi tau lah aku ni kan,tak keje tak tau duk umah...pinggang dah lah sakit,tambah plak flu,aku nye batok anjing pun kalah,sore throat lagik haiz...last week was zul.semput la plak...ni aku,hmm...5 days tak mit die so decided to fetch him from werk yesterday since it was my off day...look different,makin kurus.maybe due to lack of sleep...ke tak makan?ntahlah but mesti lack of sleep...ape tak nye...holding 2 jobs,schooling at nite bal bla bla...monday,tues,fri werk morning,nite sch.wed,thurs,sat,sun werk morning,nite werk kfc...haiz...but its good too.quite responsible.trying hard to earn more money.unlike some boys,lazy ass sitting around wif nothing to do but kikis duit pompan dorg...14 mths n going.never been happier.of cos masih fite but nothing too seriuos....kena each others nye sweet talks je dua2 cair.hahakz....well,wat else have been going on wif ma life?...
oh yah,met taufiq,nurul,juli,fendi,zubir n sit around wif them catching up wif things while zul went for his training at kfc...nak naik pangkat la tu..sometime it hurts wen i dont get to see him.tapi ape leh buat.org tua2 da pesan,jumpa tiap2 hari pun tak bagus heheks...well,i tink i have to cancel my outing to kL wif the lucky plaza ph peeps.have some probs that had to be settle...maybe once da settle,can go lar next time...

2005-04-07T11:39:00.000-07:00

well,like wat nurul said in her blog...cwp ph isnt like last time.where we used to call it home sweet home..where u wer from 8 in the morning till 10 at nite pun takpe,the fun,laughter,companion,the joy were all there.not only are we close to the staff,but even the managers.like arthur,kak yana,zoanna,jasmine,alice,desmond...they were all great people.
tak cukup dengan wer from 8am-10pm,we will lepak ramai2 sampai 12+am kat cwp.haiz,those were the times,zaman polis masih pakai sluar pendek(cam betol jek),not everything changed n we have to admit ia nye berpunca from arthur yg nak quit ph...haiz,now everyone dah takde,masing2 buat hal masing2.semua,well,almost semua quit sebab taknak jadi kuncu2 sharon,that bitch!...but watever it is,its good everyone still contact each other...hope it stays this way forever or better still semua wer alik cwp ph went that bitch is gone lolx...as if!

2005-04-04T10:54:00.000-07:00

my weekends was great...get to be wif my lovely frens from ph cwp...long time never see them,sit down n chat2...well let me start off wif wat happen on friday...
1st april,it was april fool n the only person(u noe why THE ONLY-bcos only adek2 play april fool pranks)that try to fool me was zubir(memang adik2 pun)lolx...trying to trick me saying that my bf is in hospital...hahah sori,not interested.kebetulan zul just msg me like 2 or 3 mins ago saying that hes going to bed already after a long day at werk last nite...hahaha nak trick aku pe ty?..
'tak dapat ar'...then in the afternoon get ready for werk.b4 that met nurul,syaz,juli n fen at mcd admiralty place.oh yah n it is also juli's bday.so sat there,tok2,laf2...long time no see mah...then zul msg to ask me whether nk pi ikut die pi civic bayar bil...so i say ok lor but i'm wif the others.then he say takpe kejap je n wanted me to wait at the roadside of mrt station.he said that like in a hurry so i tot he's riding a bicycle.wen asked he say no hes walking.so ok lor.wait2 never cum...takkan april fool kan...suddenly saw his dad's car,the blue mitsubishi.wonder in my heart,takkan lah bapak die hantar nak pi mit aku....guess wat??it happens that zul was the one driving that car.shito!that guy just tak takut mati...haiz,susah dapat matair giler.no license,under age plak tu...ingat ni malaysia.budak malaysia pun tak brani buat gini.so nak taknak naik jek...then ajak the rest.oh man were they shocked to see zul was the one driving the car haha.then went for a spin kat woodlands n cepat2 hantar car alik bab taknak hilang parking nye tempat the exact where his dad parked earlier...then aru we went civic,bayar bil...later went separate ways...juli n fen go jln2,nurul n syaz go makan...n me n zul went off

on saturday,abg aliff's pit sempene bday die...me n zul reached there around 9+ n almost everyone were there oreadi except for tyco...sat there makan,tok2 wif the old peeps from cwp ph.damn miss dem very much.sat down wif nurul n vivie,tok2 n cathing up wif things n the latest gossip which we cant share it here lolx...then around 1am me,vivi,zubir,abg fie,basir,shaik n zul mandi laut haha malam2 buta punyelah gelap n sejuk kite kat laut...but it was fun.so exciting.....den around 2+ me n zul alik take cab...haiz reached home msg zul,missing each other haha lolx....tired liaw,went to sleep...

2005-04-01T08:56:00.000-08:00

got to know new frends while werking at ph lucky...not from ph la from other shops...there's sheila who werk just kat blakang ph(esteler),who last time used to werk at cwp kfc n who last time used to oso be zul's ehem ehem...but that was the past,i get along well wif her now.always changing staf meal hehe...then this one guy named michael,chinese cute2,werking at hang ten.
keje die lepak at ph since he makes fren wif sume org oreadi..dat day claim dat he likes me lolx,but sori,not interested,still hepi wif ma baby zul.....

abg alif's pit tomolo,mite be going,poor angah tak dapat ikut lagik...wish she could tag along.
not sure if zul's cuming tomolo,hes werking in the evening,haiz,boring nye....
well,cant wait for the gathering tomolo wif the ph cwp peeps,its been quite a long time...
miss you peeps!signing off now,taking care!

2005-03-31T09:11:00.000-08:00

...[[ iTs NiCe WeN 2 STRaNGeRs BeCaMe BeSTFreNs
BuT iTs SaD WeN 2 BeSTFReNs BeCaMe STRaNGeRs ]]...

well,thats wat happens to me.its so sad tinking abt it.. ape tak nye,cuba bayangkan,u are in big trouble..u nid ur fren to help u n solve ur probs but at the same time ur frends bombard u claiming that ur the one causing these problems.. kononnye aku yg shiok kat kawan baik sendiri.haiz...tak dapat ar... but all this da jadi pengajaran buat aku untuk pilih yang mane kawan n yang mane lawan..aku sedar yg frenship aku wif this person only can last 5 years...thanks to sape2 yg ruined aku nye life. well,met HIM at lucky plaza last monday.not sure if he sees me
the last time was wen i went to visit him at hospital due to him being involve wif an accident.well,nak taknak pegi jugak,even though we decided not to have any contact wif each other anymore.but i still feel he's one of my bestfren still needs his company like wat he gives me from 1998-2003....yup it all ended there...used to be so close,doing everything together but just becos of one stupid person n it all disapear...we suddenly became two strangers...well,watever it is i still regard him as my bestfren,my big bro,my listening ear,my place to cheer cause i enjoy every second of his company.he will always be
on my mind n will always be my bestfren......aminnurrashid...

2005-03-27T10:08:00.000-08:00

hmm,wat shud i update...nothin much happen these past few days..as usual lah werk almost everyday.oh yah,watched movie wif the lucky plaza ph peeps last tues at cwp...den later dat nite met zul n walk2 at cwp...
woke up early yesterday,slept at my nanny's house.zubir 'haprak' tu pi kol pagi2 buta while i was still in dreamland.first call didnt pick up,then the next one,pick up n heard his voice shouting 'oi turun ar bola!'...wat the toot man lolx...wat bola?oh it happens that 2day the cwp ph guys are having a mtach wif marsiling sec....tot i couldnt cum down cos had to werk at 12,so went back to slip.at around 8 gt ready to go home take my uniform to go werk but my mgr msg me to say that i dont have to go werk,so i went sembawang to watch the guys-aliff,zubir,sahfie,fendy,basir,
taufiq,faizal n sum other new staff-play soccer...met juli hehe lovely sis long time no see...around 12 dey finished,we went cwp to mamam at the carpark...then i went back my nanny house since my cuz sume kat sane...ajak pi tgk 'konsert hanyut' haha tak dpt ar baik aku hanyut kat atas katil,sambung alik my beauty sleep.around 5 went back home...siap2,around 7.30 went out to mit zul...
well,was going to happen today?...not sure yet but i know i gotta werk later at 12.aiyah very the leceh...12-5...silap2 kena extend...oh yah n looking forward to abg aliff's pit,hopefully all the old staff can gather together once again...peace

2005-03-21T07:21:00.000-08:00

now...monday morning.mcm ane leh terbgn pun tk tau...haiz..well,in my mind rite now nk kumpul duit,hopefully the kL outing wif budak ph lucky plus zubir,zul n abg aliff jadik...cant wait!haiz nasib baik ader kawan2 lain,kalau tak confirm aku all the way terperap kat umah atau pun at werk.yelah ader kawan pun mane nak ajak aku gi mane2 lagi.as i'ved said,aku dah tak diperlukan pun.nak salahkan aku,go head.takkan lah aku yg tiap2 minit nk pi terhegeh2 contact korg tanye nk pi ane2 tk.so initiative masing2 kalau masih anggap aku kawan........
last fri was fun,had to werk morning since i chg shift ngan zubir,so werk wif nofie n wani,so gerek.after werk waited wif wani for zul n yusri to cum fetch us...zul came first then we left wani alone waiting for yus hehekz sori wani..........
sat went johor,haiyoh tak sanggupnye aku.punyelah jam!keluar umah around 3 n reached my aunt's house around 6+...spent the nite der,sun aru alik.met nono since die blum kene alik kL.go jln2,wif ma cuz,mlm nk tunggu my uncle alik we watch cite hantu dulu then watch wrestlin khekhe,sun plak nak balik aku malas,bkn malas ape malas jam.tapi nasib baik tk jam,okok ar.reached admiralty ibu nk buy hp so temankan die.bot samsung brape pun aku tak tau.
da pai umah tgh lepak plak makcik kol nk ajak jln,haiyoh cannot la,got janji zul oreadi nak go esplanade.next time can lah.............
btw,2nd april,abg aliff's pit.insya allah i'm cuming down.met him dat time at ph cwp haha wat a coincidence die pun nak pi masuk ph cwp aku pun sama,so met up wif mami leha n tok2 jap abt his pit...

2005-03-17T08:17:00.000-08:00

yup,as planned...went picnic yesterday wif the ph lucky plaza staffs...nofie,najib,wani,fana,aniza,azhar n mus...as expected,i was the late one.all becos of zubir,kejut die mcm nak mampos tak angkat2 fone...at last pegi je sendiri.pandai2 lah zubir bgn nanti.reached there,played soccer ngan najib,nofie n mus.da mcm monyet satu2 kat tgh pathway tu lolx..den around 1+ zul join us...we rent bicycle(me,fana n aniza)n zul rent roller blades...he even tot me how to blade,which has been my dream fo years!! n finally i can blade! oooWeee!so the happy,tahnks baby...then after that watch the rest play truth or dare.that was the most interesting part cant even say wat the dares were cos it mite embarassed some ppl hahakz,ape tak nye sampai tercampak campak zul ketawa so just imaging how hilarious it were hahakz...n the game was joined by one of mus cuz n his fren who were just der to skim tapi at last kena buat keje2 bodoh ni sume haha pity them..after the game of true or dare,me,nofie,wani,najib n zul played taitee...sampai tertido2 fana n aniza tunggu kite sume nak mandi laut haha cian korg.den around 5+ zul kena blah bab nak go apply sumting kat bishan...so after zul blah we all pun terjun kat laut.the best part was biler me n wani main tolak.we were carried by the guys n then we tolak each other to see sape jatuh dulu dlm air hahakz..so fun.najib n mus even learn how to skim,dah mcm beruk try swimming hahakz...bile da abis fun baru si giler zubir tu dtg.bgn lambat!...haiz die dtg sume tgh siap2 nak alik so we just lepak kedai kopi tunggu zul.but at last zul gt sum prob so die alik terus n den left me n zubir kena alik wdlands sendiri...reached wdlands went to cwp ph...ingat nk mit ngan budak2 tapi satu pun takde.basir dah balik,tinggal su n mami leha ngan budak2 baru sume aku tak kenal...so me n zubir walk mami to the mrt b4 walking home...haiz,tgh jln ketawa2 ngan zubir,hujan pun turun.nasib tak lebat...then reached admiralty we went separate ways...well,dats all i guess dat happens yesterday,reallie had fun wif them...even planned to go holiday at kL together wif aliff n zul,so hopefully sume jadi...its me wawa signing out...adious

2005-03-15T19:43:00.000-08:00

well,went bugis that day...erm,thurs i think...yoyo bot his bracelet n he got me a ring...then fite hahaha entah macam ane leh gaduh...well, like i said,kalau kejap tak perang tak sah...sikit pun jadi gak...then da talk2,both taknak kalah so both win lah senang,went to plaza singapura to watch movie...lemony snicket bla bla bla...so funny n so cute the baby sunny...hehehe quite ok lah the movie,nak watch boogeyman ader yg kedi(yoyo) hahahakz...so end up watching that stupid idiotic jim carrey..

2005-03-15T10:09:00.000-08:00

well,been erm around....6 days?since i'ved updated my blog.haiz been bz...almost everyday werk 4-11 all the way.nak kumpul duit lar terpaksa...but nothing much have been going on in my life...all the same i tink...oh yah,went bugis that day with zul,he bot a bracelet n got me a ring.thanks darrrliiinngggg....den jln2,aderlah gauduh cikit,cikit jek tak byk.biasalah wawa n yoyo kalau jln tak perang tak sah.sikit pun jadi asalkan gaduh hahakz...well,the rest of that day story is posted at our shared blog.you can proceed to the linkies n click 'home' to read it...hmm,ape lagik?oh yah,last nite was the nite again.the nite where we dont have washer cos every monday die off...so as usual,me,nofie,fana,aniza n najib gotong royong...n start lah najib simbah air kat sume org sampai basah kuyup giler n on top of that simbah air tepung...wat the toot!abes baju n seluar sume org putih2...but it was fun,sume macam tgh mandi after kena simbah berbaldi2 air lolx....luckily everyone bawak extra baju n seluar....den later dat nite met zul kat mrt orchard since die pun abes keje malam....we went home together2,with me so excited story kan zul ape jadi sampai basah kuyup rambut sume hahakz...oh yah n i'm going picnic tomolo wif the lucky plaza ph peeps at east coast i guess...entah...cant wait!!!

2005-03-09T08:21:00.000-08:00

yesterday evening went jb ngan budak2 ph lucky plaza-nofie,farhana,aniza,najib,mus(kawan nofie),zubir,kawan zubir(4get the name),me n zul...since they want me to ajak zul,so i bring him along.lagipun dah kenal so tak janggal i tink...should went wif the others at 10am.but something came up so i just waited for zubir to come back from chalet aru gi.me n zul waited for him like buah tgh hanging,lagi sikit nak jatuh tapi taknak jatuh2.buat org fed up ajek haha...well,left singapore around 4+....like zul said,zubir's time management was very bad.at jb met wif zubir's friend then proceed to angsana in a cab to mit the others.in the cab lah kecoh nak mampos tu tiga2 jantan.leh pecah2 perut aku dibuatnye layan dorg...reached angsana,nofie muke stress hahaha ape tak nye...'siang' sgt kite sume sampai...salam2/peluk2/cium2....we went to eat at kenny rogers...everyone had their own meal.but i shared wif zul since die taknak makan byk...we laugh at each others joke sampai mcm nak nangis...the main target was zubir.poor him hahaha...everytime die bebual sume cakap..'diam ar anak mama/diam ar keling'...lolx...then we went shopping separate ways bab nak kejar time.me,zubir,zul n zubir's fren walk together...bot nothing since nothing interest me n zul...except for a ring.we both bot identical rings,thats all...den around 8.30 we proceed to custom cos zul nak kena keje mlm...poor him...nasib baik tak jam.sampai jek singapore berpisah ngan zubir n his fren bab dey nak go chalet alik...me n zul waited for the bus n den took mrt.i went home n he went to werk...well,thats all i did today,nasib baik tak keje n got something to do.dari terperap je kat umah.aku bukan tau buat keje umah...lolx

2005-03-08T19:42:00.000-08:00

as i wasnt werking on sunday,sent yoyo his lunch which my mum had prepared for him...damn packolan siol suntec,due to that stupid drug thingy..(danceworks)..aiyoh,minah2 terpekik here n there...(aarghhh!..aargghhh!)...even though takde pape.haiz...well,went to lib to wait for yoyo to finish his werk.well,todays main topic was PLASTER!pasal plaster yoyo lambat,pasal plaster aku bingit,pasal plaster yoyo marah,pasal plaster aku nangis,pasal plaster kite geram at each other sampai lah we have no mood to do aniting due to plaster!...till we reach cwp,tgh kiu up kat atm cos yoyo nak withdraw duit pun kite gaduh.den went to cold storage tgk ice cream.baru yoyo pujuk me...haiz,thks for being so nice towards me baby,i'm sori for watever happens that day...sssssyyyggggg awak! -wawa-

2005-03-06T19:40:00.000-08:00

zzzzZZZzzzzZZZ (-_-)zZ....ler...baru balik dari work...very tired..tak cukup tdo..haha..pnat tangan tak leh type..so...nak gi....erm...tak tau plak si wawa nak gi ane..ikut je ah...klau ade time i'll update tiz blog yg dibuat oleh kekasih awal & tak lame lagi nk akhir..oops i mean awal & akhir smp tk tau bile...bYe? oh ok..bye... -yoyo-

2005-03-06T15:33:00.000-08:00

aku tak paham ape yg nak jadi dgn aku skrg ni...i'm frustrated,entah kenape?maybe aku kadang2 rasa diri ako dipulaukan oleh orang2?entahlah kan.tapi kalau betol ape yg aku rasa,haiz,thks la orang2.mentang2 aku da tak slalu mit,kadang2 bz,mane ader org penah ajak aku gi ane2...aku sebenarnye nak luahkan perasaan aku yg selama ini aku pendam.bukan nak kate ape ah.tapi aku terkilan,skrg ni,aku da tak pernah diajak kemana2,tak penah di updatekan dengan ape2 news,aku sebagai dipinggirkan.aku bukan nak tuduh sape2.tapi sape terasa,bagus!aku pun bukan nak blame sape2,maybe i'm not needed lagik as one of korg.tapi kalau orang2 anggap aku as one of korg,orang2 tak akan treat aku mcm gini.everyone should pikir ok since orang2 sume da dewasa,tak semestinye aku dah ader zul,aku akan berkepit ngan die 24/7 n tak ingat nak kluar ngan orang2.tapi sebab orang2 tak penah nak include aku in ape2,dats the reason why i'm always with zul.so kepada orang2 yang pikir aku pentingkan matair.....PEGI Jahanam!!!

2005-03-02T22:26:00.000-08:00

sori ppl...its yoyowawa4eva.blogspot.com
not yoyowawa4eve.blogspot.com

2005-03-02T09:20:00.000-08:00

finally decided on how my blog should look like...simple jek kuah kuah kuah
well,hope you ppl like my new look....n dont forget to view my another blog about me n zul...

haiz wat to do today,oh yah forgot that i have to werk today...ph doing a chalet these 3 days,dunno wanna go anot...haiz,so bored,its raining damn heavily.so bored plak tu,cume gurau2 ngan cat jek nari.cat pun mcm sakit jek,tak bermaya.cian die,have to go vet jugak...dunno la wen.takde duit....haiz...so stress

2005-03-01T21:58:00.000-08:00

yup yup its up and ready!...please do visit my another blog page.its about me and zul...
[yoyowawa4eve.blogspot.com]...

2005-03-01T19:36:00.000-08:00

yup!as you noe,we went shopping today (lol mcm org kaya jek)...firstly went to paya lebar since yoyo nid to get sumting den had our lunch at haig rd...later went to suntec,walk2,window shopping.nak beli tu beli ni sume nye last2 tak jadi...the first thing we bought was yoyo's lil sis adidas shoe...then proceed to buy my slipper at roxy tapi dunno why tak jadi...then went to raffles city shopping centre.yoyo bot me baju manggo.then we went to toys r us at forum...bot barney that cost $59 which can talk...then went to swensen to have our dinner...as usual,the 'gatal' zul ordered oreadi,food came oreadi but he decided to go sakura.so we canceled our order n went to far east to eat sakura....lol....so we had tomyam/cuttlefish/kangkong/sweet n sour fish...yum yum!...we then proceed home,both too tired,so sleepy...it was a fun day,but we do have our arguments along the way....but we try to bare with each other's perangai hahaha... -wawa-

2005-03-01T01:48:00.000-08:00

yesterday was the o level 2004 result...follow zul to check his result...n how he did?dont wanna say la,u wanna noe ask him...hahaha tak berani nak spread2...

WERK WERK WERK....

haiz...as you know,i'm back to werking at ph.okok ar since david tak kasi aku resign.mati2 taknak cancel nama aku.werking wif david n nofie as usual is the best!but ruth ader 'kureng' sikit...biasa gak,lebihkan orang2 yang makan babi...smlm for the very first time aku kena buat service,hai mendak!shift ruth plak tu.nasib baik svc staf yang lain sume melayu.farhana n aniza.hahah so bole la aku gurau ngan dorang.actuallie nari pun first day aku buat service ngan budak2 baru ni.pecah2 perut dorang layan aku.hehehe bagus2,means that we can get along...zul kol around 9 whereas he already say he's goin to kol around 7...hate it wen he do that cos i dunno why he call later than time yang ditetapkan.buat aku risau since aku takle contact die...well,he just say that he went for break lambat nari,ngah bebual ngan die zubir pun datang heheh long time neber mit this bro of mine...lama ke ain?....last wed aru mit...ala lama la tu.i had to went home alone just now since zul kena stay at his werkplace until late nite...well,i tink thats all the updates i have for now....oh yah zul dapat gaji besok!so we goin shopping!will update you wif the details lolx....calo bay teh!

2005-02-24T08:24:00.000-08:00

Remember i said i'ved quit pizza hut?...well WTF...i cant.for 2 reason.1 is due to lack of cash and the other one is cos the managers wont let me.dunno why.even say i'm allowed to werk 1 day as long as i dont quit.haiz,now i'm stuck back at pizza hut lucky plaza.dunno until wen,hopefully get a new job soon.mane nak pegi pun tak tau...nak buat keje ape pun tak tau...bil dah menimgbun. orang2 yang pinjam duit dari aku pun masih senyap semuanye...haiz salah aku jugak gatal sangat pinjamkan orang2 duit.nak step mane nye pemurah,last2 aku yang merana...haiz.last nite i went to werk,replace zubir.as usual buat kitchen ngan zaid.bole mati manager nofie layang kerenah kite due...haha,sampai pecah2 perut die ketawa layankan perangai aku n zaid..well,smlm tak ramai customer.so all the way aku n zaid lepak kat kitchen,makan makan makan all the way,tapi mostly aku makan fruit salad smlm.hahah diet la katekan lol...

2005-02-20T15:32:00.000-08:00

waddahell...what am i doing?saying things about my friends...praying that they burn in hell,swearing this swearing that....making some who read even cry...some even reply in a sarcastic way...wat the fuck,you know what.from now on those who read my blog,say wat you wanna say cause wawa dont give a damn whether or not you are offended!!!!

2005-02-20T11:15:00.000-08:00

nowadays,i'm always in a bad mood situation.dunno why.i have friends,yup all are very kind and nice towards me.showing their concern,some even helped too.but some....aargh,just burn in hell.i've lost my sense of humour,seldom smile,seldom feeling happy,i'm not myself.luckily i'm having lots of fun with my lover boy,he's everything.always there to cheer me up,trying as hard as he could to make me happy,enjoy myself in whatever i'm doing...
family....okok lar,have problems too,but we are trying our best to settle them.we just have to start collecting money from those tak berhati perut nye relatives who borrowed money and just lesap macam gitu je.tak fikir nak bayar balik...haiz,why must life be this way,what am i gonna do,what can i do?

2005-02-16T15:49:00.000-08:00

haiz...been a while since i've updated my blog.so many things been going on in my life.
its just the word...FUCK!
i hate my life.i need space,i need time,i need cash!...have people around me but all are useless!
the one n only that cares for me have problems too.poor him.love you baby.but people that causes problem in my life,making my life miserable,i hope you burn in hell.aaarggghhhhh,fuck you all!i just hate it when i help people but i dont get anything in return.its not that i help unsincerely and want something in return,its just that nobody cares and to add up to everything,they ignore me.these so called friends,please burn in hell.

oh god please help me and my baby.
things have been going in the wrong way this past few weeks.
please show us the right way.
please shove away all unwanted doings,evil disturb.
please allah...please bless me and baby with happiness.

so many bills to pay...fuck you lar courts.tau nak untung je.bayar lambat sikit,add up some more amount.FUCKING HELL!...aarrrrghhhhh!handphone bil!screw ph.gaji kasi budak2 pun tak cukup.keje macam nak mampos.goodbye ph....goodbye forever...
life sucks.i tink its the first time i say it and i really mean it...i used to love my life...but now,without my dad around,i realised how hard it is...living with an idiotic bro,shout shout shout....thats all i get...even my dad never treated the way he did to me now.die fikir die mane nye besar?i hope you get married soon,and get out of the house!.......someone please,kill me

2005-02-15T03:11:00.000-08:00

In life you will overcome so many challenges.so many sacrifices need to be done.as for me,i've had a few and trust me some are painful.losing a bestfriend,losing a dad,losing a lover i thought could last forever...just name it,i've experience it all.but thats life,if life is so perfect then it wont be interesting.memang allah yang menentukan segalanye tapi kite diberi akal dan fikiran untuk mengelak segala kecelakaan dan memilih jalan hidup yang sempurna dan diberkatiNya.i'ved lost and miss many of my loved ones....

1.My dad who pass away in 2003
2.The friendship of a bestfriend of 5 years-aminnurrashid-
3.My ex boyfriend who pass away in 2001-zikri-
4.My beloved grandfathers who pass away in 1992/2001
5.My bestfriend since primary school who pass away last year-irfan-

but i'm not that totally upset/disappointed and not wanting to get on with my lifei'm still happy to be blessed with a strong and wonderful mum,truthful friends,lovely cuz(taufiq,nono,asraf,ain) and of coz the most dearest boy ever came into my life(faizrul)...you all have been good and you people are the best.may we stay strong together and never let anything came in between us...

2005-02-14T03:13:00.000-08:00

Yup,its official.i've quit pizza hut lucky plaza.you just cant survive werking at ph la.low pay,penat,tak worth it.i think i mite just start to look for a full time job.goin for interview at suntec tomolo.salary is $800+...dapat jugak aku bantu ibu,kasi die sikit senang.haiz,bile lagi nak berjasa.umur pun da meningkat...tak sangka going to be 20 this year.macam baru nak masuk 17 plak hahaha.times flies so fast.haiz,too bad my dad wont be around to see me go into my adult life,earning on my own,get married,have kids,bla bla bla....reallie miss him so much..

ya allah,ampunkanlah segala dosa dosa ayahku
dan tempatkan la nye di dalam golongan
orang2 yang beriman....amin

2005-02-08T14:39:00.000-08:00

kinda miss all the old ph cwp staff(aliff,vivi,juli,fendy,shafie,anim,nurul,taufiq,andy.....)
still remember the times we spent together.really miss arthur also.he's the best!

now no more singing,soccer,hockey,catching in the ph kitchen.all of that are history now.we were relly close and always had fun together,the whole bunch of us...just hope i get to meet up with all of them again one day...

2005-02-03T07:16:00.000-08:00

To:....JuLi N FiR....

Hello lar korang...aku pun rindu pat korang....aku okok jek cume lately demam2 sikit...btw korang amacam?dah dapat keje?cian korang kan kena kire anggur skrg hehehe...takpe sabar...ape2 kalau aku ader lobang keje aku bilang korang k...btw aku tak pakai hp lagik so takya msg/kol aku pat no tu...ape2 just kol umah aku lar k...miss you peeps...taking care
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haiz...so bored...having headache today,a bad one so i guess not goin to werk then...waiting for mama and ain to come...gonna celebrate ain n asraf birthday this sunday...at where i also dunno.newton i guess since they both nak makan ikan bakar lol....well,i'm off now...goodbye

2005-01-31T03:03:00.000-08:00

actuallie i'm reali pissed off ngan orang2 hipokrit...wah dulu mana nye tak suke this certain orang...tapi alih2 je bleh jadi rapat...lepak sama2 sume...korang sume tak ingat ke macam ane perangai die tu...korang lupe ke how she/he treated us?korang sendiri macam ane nye maut kutuk2 die...pas tu alih2 rapat...haiz ni lah yang dinamakan orang2 hipokrit...aku taknak nama kan sape2...sape yang termakan cili,die lah rasa pedasnye....btw i'm not the onli one yang berpendapat bahawa korang ni sume hipokrit...ader orang lain jugak ok....kite diam sebab taknak carik gaduh pasal hal ni...tapi aku dah geram sgt jadi terpaksa luahkan jugak...so lain kali jgn 'cakap tak serupa bikin'....

2005-01-30T22:49:00.000-08:00

had off these 2 days(sat n sun) so decided to follow my mum and cuz all go jB...lagipun dah lama tak gi kubur....tapi yang aku malas tiap2 kali jam...dah takle ikut tuas bab the car dah tersangkut pat tgh2....so waited lar 2 hrs aru lepas both customs heez...

the best part abt going to my cuz house at jB is we get to eat non stop hahaha.1 min u'll be eating sumting the other min u'll be eating sumting else hahah...mcm ane ain tak gemuk asik mencekik je.hahaha dats why my darling like to call me debab....ar heck care ar janji aku happy hehehe...

one part me and my cuz all naik motor....i tot my lil cuz ifa how to ride the motor...hahaha kekek sak bawak motor ngan muke2...den gt one part she terjatuh bab alih2 je tikus lintas depan die and die panik...hahaha sampai terduduk2 kiter sume ketawa kan die....

came home just now around 12 in the afternoon.nasib baik tak jam sgt.okok jek...i took my bath b4 i went to slip...sedap siol tido sampai kul 4 i was awaken by a phone call...my cuz all nak pi tekka...hahaha gd idea lagipun aku dah lama tak mkn chappati...dah dua bulan mengidam at last dapat jugak hehehe....

pack siol ngan keling2 kat sane...aku tak tahan bau harum dorang hahaha...satu2 bau setanggi...
sampai nenek aku cakap...'pening kepala aku...!'

took 960 back home...otw home msged my dearie faizrul...6 days tak mit sejak2 die da keje kat carrefour nie...ape tak nye,aku pat umah die keje,aku keje die alik...aku cuti die keje...kalau die n aku cuti sama2 pun die keje kfc/esteler...haiz susah dpt matair yang kuat keje...tapi kire 'on' lah tu..at leats nak jugak die keje carik duit...dari pada die kire anggur jek hehehe...ape2 pun i miss you darling....muacks

2005-01-27T10:56:00.000-08:00

bored bored bored.....aiyah,nothing to do...meeting up yanti in about 4 hours time...
zul just started working at carrefour...okok ar.nak katekan die keje ni lagi aku suke...also dunno why.but i prefer this to that damn esteler thingy...something just tells me i should stay away from him awhile after that yelling that day...haiz....really shivers me off.am i gonna hear it again...hope not..try to be understanding lar ain...please...serve you rite ain for being such a bitch towards your own boy...haiz...sorry truely sorry baby...

KTMss....!!!

2005-01-22T01:55:00.000-08:00

at my cuz home rite now in jb...followed my cuz home to malaysia today...poor taufik tak dapat ikut pasal kereta tak muat.theres already me/ain/asraf and nono at the back.next time lah k...woodlands checkpoint was damn packed...so we had to drive back to tuas checkpoint.reached around 9pm,my uncle had to go for a meeting.we were all damn hungry man.terpaksa wait till 12am for my uncle to came back.but by that time sume mata dah kuyu nak tido...we went to eat kat singgah selalu kat dangga bay...packolan siol...but then gerek nampak banyak ktm from singapore hehehe...me and my cuz kept drooling.not at the riders lah of course at the bikes...i think theres around 7 to 8...i think...

2005-01-21T01:44:00.000-08:00

me and tyco finish werk at 10 just now.cepat2 blah.malas nak tunggu2 lagik...nari zul tak amik cause he's werking at kfc not esteler....me n tyco rush to marsiling to get my things and at the same time we called aliff to come down cwp to lepak with us...around 11.30 met aliff...hahaha now abg is a ph rider.has always been his dreams i guess cao he looks damn excited showing off his rider's uniform....we sat tok2 for awhile till 12+ b4 we head home....

2005-01-20T09:58:00.000-08:00

such a boring day...nowadays i dont need alarm clock...always get awaken by that oooh so refreshing smell(yeah rite!)...*hint hint*..(produce by my little kitty) eeww,dont wanna talk about it...no plan today.as usual-work work work-damn sian...cant wait to get my pay tomolo...heez still have to put aside a few for my bill..the rest of the money gonna spend spend spend hahaha (macam lah byk sgt gaji kau ain)
things to buy:
-slippers...(..B?)
-skirt...
.....
saw that roxy(yeah i know...eeeee!!) skirt.not that i'm into those minah minah roxy but then the skirt design is nice...have to get that...no matter what...(...B? :< )

today be werking at 4...haiz everyday i'm in the kitchen with zaid...but then its fun when zaid's around..always cracking joke...kalau dah boring sgt takde keje,you'll see both of us play catching in the kitchen...

10am...
where's my B?...wake up wake up!are we supposed to play GTA again today?Yes?No?...
dunnolah...no difference also,once that remote is in your hands,it'll be there till 2pm?3pm...
so you can have the game all to yourself...no harm done.i'll just be next to you....sleeping!
(lagi sedap)

2005-01-16T10:27:00.000-08:00

yeh!Singapore's the Tiger Cup's CHAMPS....went to watch the game just now at national stadium....the whole family and cuz were there...so fun,so bising especially when indra scored that goal....everyone was like mad jumping and cheering hahaha the whole stadium mcm nak roboh...actually wasnt planning on going,but then my cuz all drag me and ibu so since dah dapat tiket...pegi jelar....hehehe

2005-01-12T10:30:00.000-08:00

aiyoh,why i have to be so difficult...why i have to say such things just now...sure zul isnt happy as well after hearing what i told him...sori B but its just what i feel...tapi sekejap jelar...i dont feel such way often...i now how much we treasure each other and it wont change aite...sori for the stupid behaviour i had towards you this morning until i had to let my tears roll down my cheek...thanks for wiping them away,you've been a very nice person to me throughout this 11 months....my love for you wont change the same as what you told me...and i'm sure this relationship will go on and on and on like what you say last nite in the train hehehe...love you alot!

YEH YEH 11 MONTHS and GOING....!!!

2005-01-11T23:58:00.000-08:00

Back to werk just now...went with tyco...becos of him we are late for werk...siap mcm mak nenek...my first time werking with zubir back after we all quit cwp...now at lucky dah gerek,at least i got a fren yang paham lawak bodoh aku...hahaha.tak lama lagi terlingkup lah ph lucky plak kalau tyco buat mcm cwp ph...confirm pening manager2 kat sana layankan kerenah die... hehehe,i see tyco get along well with the others.cuma standard ar si nyonya cecilia,step mana nye bagus,sume org buat sumenye salah....dah lar tua,rambut pun tak vogue...nak ngada2...

2005-01-10T15:10:00.000-08:00

I'm BACK!!!.....what a fun weekend i had...me and my cuz went shopping all the way...
we went to Bukit Bintang,Sungai Wang,Mid Valley,KLCC and even play at the indoor theme park at Times Square...i dont even remember how many times i ride on the rollercoaster....
well,off to meet my sayang now...miss him alot...!!!

2005-01-07T17:52:00.000-08:00

hey peeps...well,i'm off to K.L in about 10 mins....gonna go for holiday and at the same time send angah to 'tabung haji'....i will be gone for about 4 days i guess...mesti gerek nye since everyone is going...i get to meet all my cuz again...aaaarghh cant wait to spent the weekend with them...to my beloved B,i'm gonna miss ya alot...take care aite....muacks!

2004-12-25T15:46:00.000-08:00

hey peeps...i'm at downtown rite now...so cool they have internet here hehehe
well, just got out from wild wild wet,damn bored sia all the rides...mcm adik2....i spent most of the time wth my cuz playing the budak2 nye slides...lagi laju,lagi gerek hahaha...
well, tonite is the celebration..my auntie bot a chocolate cake already...yeh yeh!
meeting zul and zubir tonite...jgn dorang PRET sudah...

2004-12-24T17:41:00.000-08:00

today's my birthday...well,went out with zul just now to walk2 at jurong point...
aargh,guess what happen last nite in the mrt...zul was trying to hide something from me,u noe me lar,so damn kpo...so bile tak dapat tgk ape yang die hide tu,start lah mengamuk,merajuk but actuallie,he was trying to take out my birthday pressie he got for me...a pendant with my pic on it...aargh so cantik!thx B...

i'm getting ready to go for my 3 days chalet...cant wait to meet all my cousins....
my poor kitty,no one nak jaga...hope he'll be fine when i'm away...

2004-12-20T13:58:00.000-08:00

Everytime i see you.i get this feeling down my spine.Thinking to myself.How you became mine.And then i look up and thank god for what hes done.Knowing in my heart.that you are the one.Everytime we kiss and everytime we touch.It reminds me why i love you so much.For your love and smile and great personality I cant belive it.How could this be reality.Everytime we fight.It makes me so blue.But know matter what i sayI want you to know I love you.....

2004-12-17T20:41:00.000-08:00

haiz...boring day.just got home from werk.damn tiring....zul didint pick me up today,he was so tired,just came back from kL...lucky plaza ph was oklar...the peeps there quite friendly...the nyonya's,guys/gals,uncles.....tapi tak sume lah baik....ader yang kerek semacam...menyampah aku.....like for example,this one nyonya...step mane nye teror je.like today,i have to do FRONT IC and then tak hepi plak...mcm lah aku tak dgr ape die cakap dengan manager...'eh dat ain not good leh,why put her front ic,she dunno how to do werk leh'....terajang sekali pecah tulang kau!..luckily the manager very best...'nolar,she's better than you,her experience is better,her knowlege is more...she can handle the store alone lar'...ah!padan muka kau nyonya.kan manager dah jawab macam tu...terus diam....tak hepi lagi,ape aku buat sume die tegur...itu salah,ini salah...lantak kau lah...last2 aku duk diam kat host stand..gi lah kau mampos sana buat keje sendiri.....and coincidencely ader customer complain.lantak kau lah nyonya...handle sendiri....

haiz....luckily the others staff sume ok2...baik2...especially auntie helen...so sweet,so cute,so old hahaha.....just kidding

2004-12-15T23:55:00.000-08:00

His eyes were so captivating
Thats what attracted me
Didnt know what love at first sight was
Until i met him
Didnt know i'm gonna love him so much
So young but yet theres alot we have been thru'
Never have i expected things like that is gonna happen
But he was there,to tell me to be strong
Live me up when i was falling
Never will i forget such sacrifices he has done for me
I may not be the best looking girl you ever seen
May not have the greatest personality
But i whine and nag for a reason
I sulk for a reason
I cry for a reason
I laugh,i smile,i joke for a reason
And the reason is you
Missing you everytime your not around
Not sure if you feel the same
Whatever it is,i will always be there for you

Love you,FAIZRUL...always

2004-12-15T20:48:00.000-08:00

haha!kan betol aku cakap...kau mesti baca blog aku kan azri...abeh nak mengamuk....kau tu a guy with a MILLION DOLLAR LOOKS,THOUSAND DOLLAR BODY.....with A 10CENT BRAIN!!!!

2004-12-14T22:23:00.000-08:00

went to ein's birthday outing...so exciting....everyone was there.the last time everyone were together pun masa nak melawat irfan......still remember irfan...the cheerful,cute boy...why does he has to go?.....haiz

well,like i say everyone was there...siti,zaid,ein,nawfal,ayu,nura,adi,nisa,fitri,azli,
fadli,din,ayie,rashid and me...tapi zaid tu ntah sape ajak ntah.first time aku nampak.rupanye matair si siti.step kebabai.......menyampah sak aku.....petang tadi we went to watch polar express...bday boy blanja aku,go je lar....after that we went to lau pa sat...nak mamam.tapi si sial zaid tu said something to me.i lost my mood and went strait home....msg zul,complain kat die :(
so sad,then i heard from azli,everyone else pun balik after i went home....bodoh nye zaid...spoil a bday outing......

2004-12-14T01:20:00.000-08:00

tomorow,ein's birthday...macam mane nak bilang zul yang aku nak keluar ngan budak2 sume...nanti die tu sikit2 potpet...not that i dont like him to potpet.kalau potpet pas tu kasi pegi takpe...ni dah potpet pas tu takleh pegi...kalau leh pegi pun buat muke...aiyoh manyak susah...
kalau die nak jumpa kawan die,aku marah,kena marah alik...tak padan kecik.kalau dah merajuk,bleh roboh flat die mengamuk...but what ever it is hes still my beloved baby...
susah datang matair macam ni...hahaha,sweet,lovely,cute,naughty bla bla bla...all in one package
just hope he let me go out with my friends tomoro...

haha,stupid an,call me like mad i didnt answer.try to call him back and he did the same to me...wanna meet up before he had to go for NS this friday.sorry bro,next time ar.i got plans already...

went sengkang just now to take back my PS2 from my cousin...then went to istiqamah to settle something...on my way home zul msg to tell me he just finish werk...poor him had to go so far just now at paya lebar...always wish he's safe wherever he is...

2004-12-12T00:09:00.000-08:00

well,today i'm kinda tired...woke up at 8 just now...my bro woke me up to say that my kitty is sick.poor baby...waited for zul to msg.told him about the cat...he tot of bringing the cat to the vet but luckily abg's frend came...he noes abit about cats...

met zul at 9.30am...went to lavender to renew his pasport photo.hahah dis one another poor baby.dah set rambut,sikat lawa2...cukup time kena ikat rambut hahaha,kecian die....btw,damn packolan siol orang.tak sanggup aku.around 11.30 aru abis.then we went to bugis,main game jap before we take 170 to johor.....this one place another one packolan!...reached back singapore around 3+pm....zul had to go home and get ready for werk...i'm left alone at homw,bored...
ibu and auntie call ask me to go bugis...haiz,patah alik...we went for dinner then walk2 at bugis seiyu....since today's(12.12.04) my 10th months with zul...i decided to get him something.dah 10 bulan dengan die,tak pernah pun satu kali kasi ape2 hadiah...takpe,tomoro hes going to get the 'hugo boss' perfume from me...original tau...bought myself at the bugis seiyu...hope he likes it....cant wait to meet him tomoro....well,i'm off to bed now...

2004-12-11T19:55:00.000-08:00

WHAT GOES AROUND,COMES AROUND
WHAT GOES UP,MUST COME DOWN...
NOW WHO'S CRYING,DESIRING..
TO COME BACK TO ME...

to that boy...hope your reading this...i have 3 words for you

....................TAK DAPAT AR..................
tolong lah eh,i'm sick and tired of you messaging me all the time.please lah get a life.
tak guna,jantan tak malu...'MOHAMED AZRI BIN ISKANDARIA' memang tak malu...
hidung tak mancung,pipi tersorong sorong.what part of 'i dont want you back' dont you
understand...pergilah jaga ina kau tu baik2...kalau die tau perangai kau macam ni,aku
rasa die siap kan kau NASI KANGKANG ar jadi kau akan tunduk je dengar cakap die...
tak yah ka giler2 kan pompan lain....menyusahkan hidup aku je...aku tau kau selalu baca blog aku.dats why aku sengaja tulis pasal kau jadi kau sedar...dasar KING ULAT BULU...

GoT a NeW JoB...YeH YeH!!!

2004-12-11T00:14:00.000-08:00

guess wat?...i got a job!yeh,still pizza hut lah.but at lucky plaza.siow manager ask me so many questions when i say i'm a ph star....'how to run dough'...'what are the procedure you need to know when doing aux'...siow ar!!luckily i know abit...well, starting werk this wednesday.hope the folks there are all very friendly hahaha....

damn bored man today...zul isnt cuming...no one to hang out with.sat at home the wole day today....msg2 fight some more...aiyoh this fella susah man.dunno what i'm msg about...dah tak paham,mengamuk...aku berbual a,die berbual z...mcm ane nak paham...well,gonna meet him tomorow to renew his pasport photo...siow!nak ikut gi renew pasport pun boleh jadi gaduh...haiz

2004-12-09T12:57:00.000-08:00

help me....i need a job!!!...aargh!i'm jobless,and now i'm stuck at home,doing nothing....go here go there find job,still no one wants me :(

well,this is what happen when you listen too much to your loved one...it happen that someone promises me to spend time with me until next year.but then it happen he got a job and had to leave me all alone now,doing nothing.now i had to struggle alone,looking for a job...9 mths been listening to this someone's promises,and all the whole 9 mths promises been made,goes down the big longkang!...is it wrong to point out his mistake?YES!he has to snap back at me...'awak nak tanggung kite?'...'banyak buang masa!'...'boring ar takde keje,tak tau!'....why never thing about all those stuff when you made promises last time...true colours of a sweet talker....well,now 10 months and going....guarantee more promises in coming....and all i have to do is 'SABAR'...why me?why are all these shitty stuff happening to me?doesnt he knows i need him around?does it hurt to start work in JANUARY?how long more?2/3 weeks before new year?cant he just wait???NO!he had to leave me...and its my fault...'who ask you to quit school??'....potpet potpet...thats all i get when he broke promises...not sympathy in return...haiz...why do i always have to be the loser,well,it seems things hasnt changed,the old stupid,dumb ain......

had a fight with zul just now...see lar everytime its me...padahal dier yang tak paham aku berbual ape...aku berbual melayu nak step berbual keling plak.pas tu tak paham...dah die tak paham,aku yang salah,buang2 msg....yelar sume nye aku...ader family marah aku...ader matair pun marah aku...bagus lah hidup aku jadi bahan orang marah....

2004-12-07T15:26:00.000-08:00

woke up at 6am...zul came my house to play with the kitten for awhile before he had to go for work ;( ...well,not meeting him today.cause in the afternoon he'll be working kfc plak...haiyah so bored...had a fight with my mum and bro again today.stupid uncle.hope you burn in hell!!!

i guess i'm off to nanny's house.nak sleep umah kawan pun bukan nye si zul tu kasi...pot pet pot pet...

2004-12-06T11:19:00.000-08:00

haiz,yet another boring day.my baby just started work at town...damn bored sia.nothing to do.but clever boyfriend i have,brought with him a kitten to my house before he left for werk.now the kitten is the one keeping me company...so cute,its brown and white...zul wants me to take care of the cat....but how leh,not when i'm having problems with my family...nevermind lah,poor kitty,no shelter,no food,no friend,might as well keep it...i'm gonna toilet train him the very first thing to do!hope this kitty wont make a mess at my house

well,off to meet my friend later at novena.long time never see this azri,suddenly call...siow!then off to meet my baby finishes work at 3 i guess....calo bay teh!

2004-12-06T09:21:00.000-08:00

to juli...relek ar sis,marah nampak...hehehe sabar2 ni sume dugaan.dugaan keje kat cwp ph.hahaha....tapi aku pun nak join kau gak...

to sharon...u think u very good meh?u start to come in only cwp ph have tonnes of complains...all becos of the new staffs u hired...'wanna terminate all arthur's staff'...like as if arthur's staff wanna werk with you..'isap buah gajah'!!...terlingkup ar cwp ph under sharon...and to that another manager,bodek2 ar lagi dengan sharon.end up diri sendiri yang merana kan...hahaha luckily i saw what was cuming...lincah2 blah dulu...u wont survive lah sharon...you are NOTHING compare to arthur....EAT SHIT!!!

to those staff yang depan kite step tak suke manager2 tu sume tapi kat blakang bodek2...silakan...hope you guys enjoy gengdung buah manager2 tu sume....lambung,jgn tak lambung tinggi2....kite sume dah tau lar sape yang selalu bodek2....korang sume gi kemam byk2...

2004-12-03T13:28:00.000-08:00

haiz...y do x's always come back to you when you already have someone new...sorie boy but what happens between me and you last time are history...to be honest i hate you for what you did and now you say you want me back?...tak dapat ar...what makes you think your better and have chnaged now?whatever it is i'm happy with someone else already...10 mths and going...

haiyo...missing my baby rite now...went 'sembahyang jumaat'....off to vivi's pit later in the evening...can't wait to see the rest there...too bad juli cant join us,poor u kena werk heheh... whatever it is take care aite sis...tatata!!

i'M BaCK...!!

2004-11-29T13:48:00.000-08:00

heylo peeps!i'm back from melaka...it was fun...me and my cuz all played mercun especially the meriam buluh....gerek giler...we even sat together and have our parents tell us about how we were when we were young...it was great,funny,hilarious...i have to admit i ate alot!damn alot!

well,kinda miss my baby oreadi.4 days never meet...he also just came back from holiday at muar.well,i'm off to hospital rite now,got to go for check up.sian sia,tummy pain,this pain....

my baby just msg,ntah ape die nak....going to msg2 him for awhile....

BYE BYE PeePS...!!!

2004-11-26T05:36:00.000-08:00

well,i'm going off to melaka for about 4 days....cant wait to meet my cuzins all and go 'balik kampung' hehehe....its gonna be fun!c ya all on monday...and for my baby bucuk cute cute,take care aite,miss ya!

2nd RaYe ouTiNG....

2004-11-26T01:26:00.000-08:00

hehehe today me and zul wasnt late...we met zubir at 10 and reach interchange to meet the others at around 10.15....today,me,zul,juli,fendi,alif,vivi,kak yana,zubir,shaik,taufiq,idalia,
ayu,ayie,yan,iqah,nurul,fir,shafie,faizal,basir,nana and ramdan went 'jalan raye'....

first up was shafie's house,then to cik leha's,juli's,fir's,fendi,alif,vivi's,mine,nana's.....bla bla bla...
boleh mati ari tu sume rumah kena makan....naik kembung perut kite sume....hahaha but that day was fun.even though its raining,it didn't stop us to continue our outing...

well,i'm off now.tomorow i'm going to melaka and i haven't even pack my bag...and plus i'm damn sleepy....c ya!

HaHa...TiDo PaT iNTeRCHaNGe Pe...PeKaT BaHaSa....LoL

2004-11-25T08:26:00.000-08:00

hahaha,sorilah byk2 juli.aku tau lah kat blog kau tu referring to aku hahaha bab aku yg datang lambat giler that time.tapi zul lah,terhegeh hegeh macam mak nenek....pas tu aderlah perkara yang tak diingini berlaku tau...bukan kite saje nak datang lambat...lambat 45 mins plak tu.hehehe tapi aku janji hari nie tak lambat.lambat pun sikit je kot takderlah macam last week hehehe so jgn takut k,takkan beraya kat interchange punye...

well,our second outing today.ngah tunggu for zul.mane je si bucuk ni.ntah dah bangun ke blum...tak msg2 pun...haiz...so bored.woke up at 7 just now.kemas umah :( ibu gonna cook mee rebus today for my frens i guess....dunnolah....well,i'm off now...wanna get ready...tata!

Haiz...BoRiNG DaY... :(

2004-11-24T15:29:00.000-08:00

so bored,got nothing to do,nowhere to go...
zul came my house at around 11am
play ps2,talk2,play computer,wrestling....until he had to grip my arms real hard and that makes me weeps.hahaha actually didnt intend to cry but it hurts alot....but then he comfort me and we ok2....hahaha then at 3 just now he left to go home and get ready...get ready for what?get ready for work lah.stupid kfc,last minute tell him to werk.now left me here at home,bored.nothing to do,nowhere to go,no one to tok to....poor me... :(...guess just have to beg my mum go somewhere to avoid this boredom...

MY TRue SiNGaPoRe iDoL...!!!

2004-11-22T22:00:00.000-08:00

my singapore idol has to be.....TAUFIK BATISAH!!....this fella is full of everything...with those heart melting voice and charming looks with perfect smile,who would want to resist hahaha(no offence b,ur still my perfect one)...the first time i saw him,he sang 'my girl' i was like...'wat the fuck sia this guy,no good still can win'...but that was last time.as i watched him every week i realised he has made a tremendous improvement..and i agree with the voters that taufik should go to the final and win the title of our very first singapore idol....good luck to taufik and hopes he wins this coming 1st december....

YeH YeH JaLaN RaYe LaGi...!!!

2004-11-22T09:48:00.000-08:00

a year ago,me,faizal,firdiana,mar,muzaimin,kak yana,zubir,zeana,shafiq,shafie,siti,ramdhan and fendy went 'jalan raye'....with zubir partnering zeana hehehe,fendy and kak yana....this year the outing happened again.but this year with more peeps and different partnering....who would have expect,in a year,from partnering with zeana,zubir is now with kak yana.as for fendy,from partnering kak yana,is now with juli hehehe....dah tunggang terbalik dah....but watever it is,everyone are friends and everyone is happy....as for myself,last year with my abang fauzi.but this year with my new hubby-faizrul-....more new peeps are included too in this year's outing...people like zul,aliff,taufiq,basir,andy,yanti,ayu,apit,shaik,nurul,nana and blah blah blah...

well,had our first outing together last week tuesday(16 nov 2004) and the next one will be on this thursday(25 nov 2004)....and on that day we gonna invade house such as yanti's,ayu's,nana's,aliff's,vivi's,yoyo's,shafie's,basir's and mine!....its gonna be a blast when more than 17 people go 'jalan raye' with beautiful/colourful traditional costumes.....everyone looks great :)

MeT MY CuZZiN -iQaH-...DaMN FaT Sia...hahaha!

2004-11-21T23:19:00.000-08:00

Today my cuzzin,iqah (3 years old) came to my house...damn cute,wearing baju kurung hehehe long time never see this toodles...i cant even carry her...naik semput aku dibuatnye hahaha.shes so cute lah...hahaha when ibu wanna give her money,she say 'tak payah lah'..hahaha so cute,only 3 years old has already been tot such things...well,too bad things doesnt work out well for her parents...poor baby,hope shes fine wherever she is...

3 hrs later,another cuzzin of mine named iqah also(4 years old) came...this one also damn gemuk sia...so chubby and so cute...running around like one active baby pooh hahaha...

around 1.45pm met yoyo,asked him to accompany me go yishun to settle something...after taht we talked,blah blah blah and i see some changes in him...not those drastic/bad changes but changes to go back to his normal self hahaha...finally i see the old faizrul back in my life....i love him soooooo very very much....those sweet talks he used to give me are now coming back,shooting at me hehehe....thanks b,for been so understanding.glad to have the real you back in my life....Muacks!

10 STePS To LeaD You To a HaPPY ReLaTioNSHiP...

2004-11-20T16:53:00.000-08:00

1:Be realistic
2:Always talk things out
3:Do stuff together
4:Respect each other
5:Sit on your jealousy
6:Be committed
7:Show your love
8:Meet each other interest
9:Bury the past
10:Be honest and never keeps secrets...

i LoVe You,You LoVe Me,We'Re a HaPPY FaMiLY....

2004-11-20T15:56:00.000-08:00

i LoVe You ToDaY,
i LoVe You ToMoRRoW.
PuT iT ToGeTHeR,
i LoVe You FoReVeR....

MaTTeR oF TiMe...

2004-11-20T15:40:00.000-08:00

I know you want to make things right
To move ahead, find a way to win the fight
And though it's hard to keep the faith
We'll make it through if we take it day by day
They say that all good things
Will come to those who wait
And if we believe in each other
I know we can make it together
Baby it's just a matter of time
If we can take it slow everything will be alright
Let it flow, and I know that we'll find
It's just a matter of time
When you feel down and out of touch
And no-one's there, no-one's there to lift you up
Life's not as bad as it may seem
Just hold on tight and never lose sight of your dreams

THe DaY You WeNT aWaY...

2004-11-20T15:20:00.000-08:00

Well I wonder,
Could it be?
When i was dreaming 'bout you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy,
Call me blind,
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time
Did i lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like i do,
i do
You know i really really do
Well hey, so much i need to say
Been lonely since the day
The Day you went away
So sad but true
For me there's only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away.

2004-11-20T15:01:00.000-08:00

This song dedicated to me by that special someone.not sure whether he still remembers it anot cause i dont hear it from him anymore...*sobs sobs*

SHe'S THe oNe

2004-11-20T15:00:00.000-08:00

I was her she was me We were one we were free And if there's somebody calling me on She's the one If there's somebody calling me on She's the one We were young we were wrong We were fine all along If there's somebody calling me on She's the one When you get to where you wanna go And you know the things you wanna know You're smiling When you said what you wanna say And you know the way you wanna play You'll be so high you'll be flying Though the sea will be strong I know we'll carry on Cos if there's somebody calling me on She's the one If there's somebody calling me on She's the one When you get to where you wanna go And you know the things you wanna know You're smiling When you said what you wanna say And you know the way you wanna say it You'll be so high you'll be flying I was her she was me We were one we were free If there's somebody calling me on She's the one

PLeaSe BRiNG BaCK THoSe MeMoRieS To Me...

2004-11-20T14:00:00.000-08:00

Well,like i'ved said,something is wrong between me and him.something or maybe someone has causes it.But today,i'm gonna shoot some questions to him and hopefully we'll be together,holding on 4eva...*fingers cross*

CouLD iT Be...???

2004-11-16T13:59:00.001-08:00

well,these few days have been a disaster for me.i'm confused,confused about my own lovelife...i sense something is wrong.maybe someone new is in his life...i think i know who it is.well,he kept denying it and i'm not sure whether should i or should i not trust him.it hurts alot to see someone you love,has feelings for someone else.well,i'm not been difficult or too jealous but who wouldn't be if you see changes in your boyfriend's behaviour?its hard for me to explain it therefore no one understands.all they thought is that i'm ego,trying to control my boyfriend,not understanding...well,try to be me...i've been with him for almost 10 months,and i see drastic changes...(becoming too sensitive,get mad easily,scolds me for nothing,and then we gets into fights)usually our fights wont last even a day,but now he dont even care.does he even understands me?does he even understands how i feel as his girlfriend...well,everyone who loves someone obviously gets jealous easily.i mean who wouldn't rite?even you get jealous when other guys msg me,then we fight...see whats happening now...its you who have changed.its true you were there for me when i needed someone.but its different how you care for me now and last time...you used to say,no point msging other girls when you already have me,but what happens now after that girl came back to your life?...whats gonna become of me?...you have to understand that its hard to let go,its hard after everything that has happened between us... whatever it is,your still my heart,my mind and my soul...and i love you alot...
its nice meeting you on my way to growing up...dont spoil it aite? :)

SeLaMaT HaRi RaYe...!!!

2004-11-13T13:47:00.000-08:00

well,its the time of the year again...i know i'm gonna cry my heart out today,and its true...two years already without the person i love most.i guess i just have to strong...thanks to faizrul who was always there for me,to shower me with comforting words,love you alot baby...
well,today i woke up at around 9+am...msg zul for awhile before i help my mum to finish with the chores...then i took my bath and put on my new kebaya...its beige in colour as wat me and my family have agreed on...
well,this part had to be one of the memorable one...shaking and kissing my mum's hand,asking for forgiveness.well,she's one strong lady,had to go through so much pain in life...
after that we were off to nanny's house at Bukit Batok...met all my uncle,auntie and cousins there before we went to our relatives house...
First on the list was my atuk sedare at Toa Pah Yoh,then went to Chai Chee my another nenek house,then to my aunt house at Bedok...back to Bukit Batok to my uncle's,then to Tech Whye to my aunt,then to Bukit panjang to my cousin's house...wow!

well,sempene hari baik bulan baik nie,i want to wish all the muslims out there HAPPY DEEPAVALI...hehehe SELAMAT HARI RAYE lar...Taking Care

iT MaKeS SeNSe...DoeSN'T iT...??

2004-11-12T01:43:00.000-08:00

The way i see it now, all this crap abt reggae is getting too much. MOst people these days just listen to reggae cos they find it 'gerek', 'sedap nak joget'? WAT de FARK??? Reggae IS NOT jus abt farking Sean Paul, Kevin Lyttle(Dick) and 2play.. Reggae is a culture in itself. Dont jus listen to that dancehall crap on the radio or at a certain 'Disko Kanak-kanak' and jus blindly dance to it. Reggae is a RELIGION. Don't disgrace it and call yourselves 'Boy Rasta' or 'Baby Rasta' or 'Rasta Girl'. You think u really a Rasta? Then go renounce your Muslim faith! Cos being a Muslim forbids u from engaging in ANY form of worship whatsoever of another religion... and that religion, u morons is the religion of RASTAFARI. In Rastafari, there is the 'prophet' Marcus Garvey and his Imperial Majesty Haile Selassie. If u wanna jus enjoy the music, go ahead nothing wrong with it, but educate yourselves and stop disgracing another person's religion. And at least i KNOW and am INFORMED about wat i deal with, unlike some other people. So i rebuke whoever says i'm a wannabe. And to set the record straight, Nobody in Singapore can practice Rastfarianism. NOBODY. Instead of spending your parents hard- earned money on buying youselves Roxy stuff and Quiksilver slippers, go spend time in a freakin library n read up, OR ask yr parents to channel all their hard-earned money into getting you a computer with cable access... and then USE this computer to GAIN KNOWLEDGE...NOT DOWNLOAD songs. Geez... Matreps~... and minahreps. Wannabes.. Anyway, for REAL reggae music in Singapore, we've got the Bushmen playing at Zombie Bar every Wed nite and Hard Rock Cafe every Sun nite. AND, there're Reggae nites happening back to back elsewhere too. Namely at :- @ Desire Bar (39 Circular Road behind Boat Quay) every Wednesday nite. Party till 6am. Its a REAL REGGAE nite and LADIES' NITE.. the kind where the ladies DON'T have to pay for their free flow, unlike at some other club(s). For the guys, its jus a 1st DRINK CHARGE. Best deal in Boat Quay. Yes thats rite, ladies walk in for free!! @TUNNEL (Big Splash ECP) every Thursday. PArty till 6am, dirt-cheap entrance fees and expensive booze being sold cheap @ the bar. What more could you ask for?? Notice that i DID NOT mention any other clubs' names. Get the picture? Everyone's entitled to his or her opinion. And that, ladies and gentlemen , was MY two- cents worth. But then again, if i caused any offence to be taken by wat i wrote above, then please stay away. The truth hurts, doesn't it?

Me.Me.Me

2004-11-11T14:05:00.000-08:00

Where were u born?: Kandang Kerbau Hospital...
When were u born?:24 December 1985
What is ur fav. color?:pink/red
What is/are ur fav. band/s?:boyzone lar...lol
What is ur fav. movie?:Paria
What is ur fav. tv show?: whose line is it anyway
Who do u hate the most?:ader lar
Who do u love the most?: my mum!
Who is ur bf/gf?:d one and onli Mr ZuL!!
Where do u live? (state):Woodlands
What grade are u in?:No more schooling lar
What color is ur hair?: red
What color r ur eyes?:black?
What is ur name?: Nur'Ain Bte Md RazaLi
Do u like britney spears?: Bluek!!
Are u gay/bi?:hahaha siow!
Do u think gay people are bad?:No,they are nicer than guys actualli
Do u believe in Jesus Christ?:yah,as one of the prophet
Do u hate men?: no...if i do i wont have a bf
Do u hate women?: y should i?
What is ur fav. brand of make-up? (if u wear any): sebat jelah...anything i feel comfortable in
What is ur fav. store?: too many
Are u a virgin?:hahaha kepo!!
Are u sexy? (lol):hahaha,ask my Mr ZuL lar...
Do u smoke cigarettes?: NOPE...
Do u smoke pot?:wat pot?...flower pot??

aBouT Me...LuRVe THiS KiNDa STuFF...

2004-11-03T08:08:00.000-08:00

>1. Name?NuR'aiN
>2. Own A Handphone?Yupz!...6230
>3. First 2 Number Of Your Handphone?94...
>4. Song You Are Listening To Now?Cranberries-Linger-
>5. Feeling Now?Pain in the tummy :(
>6. Pets?used to...but ran away from home and didn't came back :(
>7. Name[s] of pet[s]?Whitley
>8. Description Of Shirt You're Wearing Now?my skool tee-the normal grey ite tee-
>9. Chips Or Popcorn?bedal je tak cerewet
>10. Person You WanT to Meet Now?actuallie gonna meet my B soon
>11. Person You Last Saw?My mum b4 she went to werk...
>12. Last Person You Last Went Out With?My B...yesterday!
>13. Last Person You Hug?My B...hahah
>14. Your Best Friend/Buddy?too many lah
>15. Last Time When You Went To See A Doctor?Yesterday
>16. What illness?Stomach ache
>17. Favourite Restaurant?S11 hahaha
>18. Favourite Cartoon Character?Sylvester
>19. Ever Prank Call?Duh...my auntie always kena one
>20. Hung Up On Some1?alot of time
>21. Furthest Place You Have Travelled?australia?i tink
>22. Financial Status?still able to hold on
>23. Biggest Fish You Caught?hahaha,last 3 years with my dad...a swordfish!
>24. Proudest Achievement?won 3 dance com during my primary school years
25. Colour Of Hair?brownish
>26. Colour Of Eyes?black?
>27. Long Or Short Hair?shoulder length
>28. Straight Or Curly?straight
>29. Wear Watch?yupz!!
>30. Who Must You Have Everyday By Your Side?My mum!!
>31. Favourite Song?too many lah
>32. Favourite Group?boyzone LOL
>33. Favourite Singer?My B hahah
>34. Hobbies?too many lah
>35. What Colour Is Your House?yellow
>36. What Do You Usually Wear When You GoOut?skirt/jeans/tshirt...
>37. What Book Do You Read Now?i dont read books lah
>38. Have Msn?yupz!!!!...
>39. Current Nick?still wawa
>40. What Are You Doing?typing lah
>41. What Are Your Plans For Tomorrow?go somewhere secret only me and my B noes hehehe
>42. What Is Your Bedtime Today?depends...10?11?12?...once my B sleep,i sleep lah

i'Ve QuiT SCHooL...&...i'M JoBLeSS...!!!!

2004-10-25T17:42:00.000-07:00

yup,thats rite!i've quit school...too much to handle.got so many family problem.furthermore i think its a waste of money where you go to school and teachers are just so lazy bumb to teach!wasting my mum's money and my precious time...so goodbye iTe MaCPHeRSoN...sayonara!!!

and i'm jobless *sobs sobs*...now my workplace(cwp pizzA hut)is like damn fucking shit!its totally diiferent now...more new and boring staff...not just staff,we have some fucking,irritating managerS...isap BUAH GAJAH!!!hate that place already...no more arthur,no more yana and definitely no more friends...well,some are going out.whereas those who are so sincere there will stay...but not for me,vivi,aliff and shafie...the four of us are gonna stick as one...and we have some plans on the way.....YEAH!!!

SoMe LoVe SuRVeY i GoT HeRe....HeHeHe...

2004-10-19T09:50:00.001-07:00

QuesTions:
1. If there was one person you wanted to be
with
>my b,faizrul

2.If the one you love loves someone else,
>sad,but you are able to choose who you want to love but you dont get to choose who loves you back

3. what was the biggest mistake you have done
>hurt my mum,made her cry...

4. If you could turn back time, what would you
have done?
>listen to her...be a nice child hehehe

5. If you like someone right now, what is it in
her/him that made you fall for her/ him?
> for now its my b,and he's caring and loving...also sweet and thats why i fell for him

6.would you consider yourself lucky at this
point because of someone?
> ???....

7. what is the greatest sacrifice you have
done for love?
> too many hahaha

8. who is the person you would call 'my life'
right now?
>my mum!!

9. Do you believe in love at first sight?
>yup!cos thats how i meet my faizrul-fell in love at first sight-hahaha

10. If you have a best friend in the opposite
gender, why of all did you pick him?
>i used to have one...now he's gone and i didnt picked him...we just became close...

11.What if you fell in love with your best
friend, would you tell him/her?
>nah,its better to remain as friends

12. Destiny / Magic
>destiny

13. How can you let go of someone that
wasn't yours from the start?
>i did let go once,its hard at first but we both moved on and now happy with each other's new companion

14. Are you scared of being rejected?
>i've never been rejected,i always reject hahaha

15. Does looks matter to you?
>a little,cos thats what first attracts you

16.Do you always get jealous to the person
even he's only your so-called admirer?
>never

17. Are you in love now?
>yuppy!

18. Have you ever felt that the person you're
in love with actually likes you but he didn't tell
you?
>yah...but i knew it even from the start

19. who do you like?
>my faizrul

20.who do you love now?
>my faizrul

21. who do you miss now?
>do i have to say it again???

22. If you already broke up with him, what is
the reason that caused both of you to break
up?
>we are still together rite now...but if we were to break...the reason will definitely due to EGO

23. If u gets an opportunity, would you like to
go on a date with ur 'him'?
>i've already got that opportunity

24. If only you were to choose between your
guy and ur friends, which will u choose?
>it doesnt matter cos my guy is my friend too

25. Do you like when it comes to doing 'love'
survey?
>huh?hentam jelah...

LoVe You,aRTHuR...!!

2004-10-18T01:32:00.000-07:00

Today me,zubir,yana,nurul,aliff,anim,vivi,basir,shafie,fir,nana,juli,ramdhan,mirah and fendy went to arthur's house to discuss with him what we should do about the new managers.we break our fast at arthur's house,then around 8pm started our meeting...

10pm
left arthur's house.fir and nana left.the restof us went to blk 671 to play police and thief...haha,really fun,but i guess we made too much noises and the neighbours complained to the police...kena screen...after that we all went home around 11pm...

HaTe You SHaRoN & JaMiR.....You BoTH SuX BiG TiMe !!!

2004-10-17T01:16:00.000-07:00

12pm
reached my workplace...as i came in the back door,i saw aliff,fendy and the others doing some cleaning in the kitchen.Mummy saw me and warned me to greet our new RM...FUCKING HELL,i came in the office and she stared at me.WHAT THE FUCK!...clocked in

1:"ain,next time clocked in when your clothes are all tucked in!"....

start work and had to do drink server...so mendak,not many customers...

12.15pm
sharon walked walked,always looking at me,please lah,give me some freedom...came to me

2."ain,wheres your apron?!"

Fuck!Never in my 1+ years of working do i have to wear apron...

12.30pm
sharon came to bar...aiyah cannot give me some space issit?what else now?

3."ain please wear your nametag properly!"

EAT SHIT! lah,sharon...too mad with me i guess,whispered to jamir,at the same time looking at me...jamir came to me..

4."ain,go do some cleaning inside"...FUCKING HELL!!!ISAP BUAH KAMBING!!!

In the kitchen,talked,joked around with aliff,mummy,anim,fendy...suddenly anim kena dismissed because he made pizza without following procedures(which we all have never been doing for years working there)stupid new managers...anyhow terminate anim

4pm
couldnt wait any longer,clocked out quickly...zul was waiting outside and i hurriedly blah from there...

10pm
met yoyo then went blakang ph to meet the others.we are going to have a staff meeting tonight.
Everyone waited for mummy,once she came out,everyone went to TITANIC to discuss about what we're going to do with the new managers...

We DiDN'T GeT aNY MeDaL ToDaY...BuT We SuRe eNJoYeD ouRSeLF...

2004-10-14T18:31:00.000-07:00

well our soccer team were off to REGIONAL CAMPUS today to play some FUTSAL...
we were all divided into two teams...

TEAM A
Wadah
DeeDee
WaWa
Nor
Nana
a'Simah
Nisa

TEAM B
Syahira
Nurul
Wan
Maz
aisha
Huda
Shikin

my team A played against BEDOK and we won 1-0
played against BISHAN and we lost 5-0
played against BALESTIER and we lost 3-4
played agaisnt YISHUN and we won 2-1
played agaisnt CLEMENTI and we won 3-1

we lost by points....but everyone played well and we sure had fun today...

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT...!!!

2004-10-13T20:25:00.000-07:00

obviosuly thats what me and yoyo did these pass few weeks...dunno why,cant seem to get along...he was mad at me for something today.but then i put some sense into him and 'ungkit balik' what he has done towards me...i mean c'mon boy,your not been fair to me...should i always give in nanti 'naik lemak' pulak....

but later everything went back to normal...he comforted me sweetly and softly...we then went to play counterstrike....

left cwp to go home at around 6+...so suey,rain poured so heavily and i was damn soaked!...

SoMe iNSPiRaTioNaL QuoTeS...

2004-10-13T10:16:00.000-07:00

Your talent is God's gift to you.What you do with it is your gift back to God.

The past cannot be changed,the future is still in your power.

A champion is someone who gets up, even when they can't.

You are never given a wishwithout being given the power to make it come true.

Don't let today's disappointmentscast a shadow on tomorrow's dreams.

DoWN BY 2 - 0 BuT THeN We FouGHT BaCK....2 - 2 YeH !!!

2004-10-12T22:22:00.000-07:00

today we had a friendly match again with iTe eaST BeDoK...*dah kalah nak lawan lagi pulak* haiz...when we met last time,they lose 2 - 1... 7 a-side game,they lost 2 - 0...now they want a rematch...WHAT THE TooT !!!Last minute want rematch...not happy is it...actually,most of us are injured today but our team spirit was there so we just agreed to play.by the way we are reserving our energy for thursday's FUTSAL at REGIONAL CAMPUS...nevermind,since we done want BEDOK to call us cowards,we agreed....

1st half was like shit...we were down by 2 - 0....too much comments from BEDOK's players...

these are a few of them...

"tengok ar sape bedok sekarang"
"ah,macpherson nothing ar"
"jangan takut dengan macpherson,kasi tolak,patah kan je tulang2 dorang"
"jangan kasi chance"
"macpherson dah tak bagus ar"
.....blah blah blah.....

we just kept quiet hearing those remarks.i mean who give a fucking shit...its just a friendly match anyway....

2nd half started,we played like normal and guess what...we FOUGHT back and the final score was 2 - 2....Hahahaha....

these were some of the remarks we gave back to BEDOK..

"macpherson tak bagus pe?"
"tengok ar sape macpherson"
"eh,kite FIGHT BACK ar"
"banyak berbual banyak bohong ar BEDOK"
........hahaha

good play girls...credits to NOH and MAZ who scored...you girls played well,and to the others as well....we really play hard today...good work GIRLS....
iTe MaCPHeRSoN SoCCeR GiRLS RaWK!!!!!

i ReaLLie HaD FuN ToDaY,B.... :)

2004-10-11T22:24:00.000-07:00

can say that i spent most of my time with my beloved b today after settling some problems...
firstly,he was at my house.we played a bit of the playstation,watch tv before we went out to go to the library....then i met nurul at ph,settle some problem...nurul went home,me and yoyo went to level 7 of cwp to play counterstrike...

yup!actually first time play counterstrike with my boyfriend.usually i will just go with my friends hahaha.cannot tahan lah that guy.damn funny,so giler hahaha.laughing all the way while playing counterstrike with him hahaha...

i love you,b...really enjoy my day with you today...you take care aight.i'll meet you tomorrow..
muacks!!! :)

ReaLLie SoRi FiTRi...

2004-10-09T22:10:00.000-07:00

To:My lovely,cutie cousin,fitri...

i'm reallie so sori dear i forgot that i've promised to take you out today...i was so mad until i forgot about our plan...promise i'll make it up to you aight!

REALLIE PISSED OFF TODAY...ONE AFTER ANOTHER PROBLEM...

in the morning i was sleeping so nicely and ibu just had to wake me up.i mean c'mon,its a saturday and some more i'm on my off day.give me a break!when i say i'm tired,she had to pull me out of bed and drag me to the toilet...when i'm ready,i asked her whats her plan and where she wanna go...guess whats her answer...

"dunno where to go lah"...what the shit man!woke me up like mad!then i suggested lets go yishun.it was my lucky day as i was walking at yishun,i saw asyraf hehehe.that cutie,long time no see.finally met him after 7/8 months i dont even remember....

pissed off with ibu,then my brother had to pissed me off.not enough with my brother,my boyfriend had to pissed me off.WHAT A DAY!!!

i'M So TiReD ToDaY :(

2004-10-08T22:16:00.000-07:00

woke up at 7.30am today...got ready for school...class start at 9 but reached at 9+...i did my OA assignment and the rest of the time i play games blah blah blah...around 10.45am i rush out of class with nurul to go to cwp...

11.50am
reach cwp,iron my uniform and start work....had to do BAR today,so tired...luckily i have a very reliable drink server,thanks juliana...i was so bored at work,walk around the whole ph trying to find something to do...zubir was there so i just hang around,tok tok with him...then help mama to run dough...around 3pm i went back to continue doing bar...

4pm
got change,met yoyo at the back of PH....went straight to meet ahmad.today ahmad was supposed to bring a friend but dunno wat happen,the friend never turn up...
we went to lucky plaza,yoyo and ahmad played pool,then we ate at the foodcourt....

7.30pm
make our move back home....

QueSTioNS To KNoW Me BeTTeR...

2004-10-08T10:22:00.000-07:00

1) What is the brand of your hp?Nokia 6230
2) What'll you do if you see your bf hugging a girl?hahaha,only yoyo will noe wat i'll do
3) Have a gf/bf?yup,my darling Faizrul
4) Have your own room?yup
5) Dislike?2 faced people and veggies
6) 1 thing you cant live w/o?my heart?
7) Where do you live?admiralty
8) What would you do if some one tells you he Likes you ?hmm,blushes
9) How are you feeling n0w?tired,bored
10) Where do you hangout?my block area with my B
11) What are you good at?annoying people
12) What is it abouT a perSon you cant stand?when they say they are good at something and boast around about it but actually they sucks!
13) What do you want?MONEY,MONEY,MONEY
14) A word that describe you?sweet hahaha sweet abez
15) What is your dream?to be successful,duh...take care of my mum forever
16) Day/night?day,cause at nigthi dont get to meet my B often
17) Sunset/sunrise?sunset!
18) Like a romantic bf/gf?DUH!
19) What is it abouT the opposite gender that attracts you?for my B,its his smile,for others,dependslah
20) Are you an independent person?No,need someone around for support
21) Do you like schooL?for now,NO...ask me in 10 years time,i'll say yes,i miss school
22) ARe you stubborn?Yup
23) Believe in god?-- Duh
24) Your favourite physical feature :-- My smile and dimple :)
25) Believe in fate?-- No.-- I believe in working for what you want in life-- Rather then leaving it all to fate
26) Get pissed off easily?-- When ppl behaves like SHIT
27) Like your parents?I LOVE them.
28) Are you a materialistic person?-- Nope
29) Believe in love ?-- Definately
30) Will u get a tattoo?if my religion allows it,why not
31) Smoke--NOPE!
32) Club / pub ?used to go clubbing...not anymore
33) Will you forgive your bf if he cheats on you? NO!!!
34) Will you expect your bf to forgive you if you cheats on him?? YES!!!
35) Were you on a trip recently? -- Yup-- To KL and Genting with my family
36) Favourite country?-- Perth,Australia
37) Are you impatient?-- Very
38) Which brands?-- Nike
39) Do you organise parties often?No
40) Do you have good friends?-- Loads of them
41) Do you think you are good looking?of course hahaha
42) Do you care about looks?nah...but i love to impress my B...!!
43) Do you think that you have a good bf?he's the best,most perfect one
44) Do you use vulgarities?-- Yes, sometimes.
45) Do you quarrel with people easily?nah,waste of time
46) Are you forgiving? depends
47) Do you get hurt easily?used to,not anymore...yoyo taught me to be strong heheh
48) Do you prefer guys with long/short hair?anything will do but for now,b please go cut your hair.
49) Do you prefer girls with long/short hair?i dont give a damn
50) Is your hair colored?-- Yes-- light brown
51) Are you a romantic partner?ask my B
52) Do u wear a watch?yup...
53) What color clothes do you like?-- colour clothes that lo0k gd on me,duh
54) Will you chose love or $$ ?-- Hmmm-- Difficult choice....-- Love !-- Bcos money can't buy you love-- But love can get you money. HEeeee
55) Do you prefer slp or eat?i love to eat then go to sleep
56) Fav0urite flower-- Rose,after wat my b say to me about behaving like a rose...so sweet
57) You like to receive flowers?-- Yes--Like those one bunch kinds-- No one ever does that to me before !
58) Favourite perfume?eternity,calvin klein
59) Favourite type of music-- r&b
60) Loves?my mum,my brother,god and my B...(if my dad is still around,he's the one i love most)

B...FoR THe LaST TiMe...DoNT MaKe PRoMiSeS iF You KNoW YouR GoNNa BReaK iT !!!

2004-10-06T03:15:00.000-07:00

woke up at around 12am.waited for yoyo's call.promise to call me before 1am.time passes,no call,nothing.STUPID PHONE,PLEASE RING!

1.20am
Phone Rang...hear music blasting at the background.then i heard zubir's voice...then he pass the phone to yoyo.say he's not coming home yet...WAT THE TOOT!!!ok FINE!put the phone down,watch tv...

2.20am
Ahpui called.he and yoyo were on their way home.told me not to get angry at yoyo.actually i'm not angry...just worried.well,who doesnt....i'm at home feeling so worried,he's out there in the middle of the nite with dunno who,doing what.luckily ahpui called...THANKS ahpui,really appreciate it....

SoCCeR !!!

2004-10-05T22:09:00.000-07:00

had training today,since yoyo went for DINNER & DANCE,i stayed longer at school.we played soccer till around 7.30pm.At 8,we left school,join the others at singpost to have our meal...around 9pm i make a move...reach home ibu POT PET POT PET...please lah,i'm so tired,still gets nagging.so tired to hear her nag some more,i went straight to bed...

aRTHuR...You oWe Me !!!

2004-10-04T23:50:00.000-07:00

Today is my off day but arthur called begging me to work since he dont have enough staff...
Poor arthur...ok lor,since me and yoyo are ok already,i agree to go to work today....
Have to do MAKE...Mummy WENT HOME EARLY and left me alone to do make... *sobs sobs*

B...DoNT MaKe PRoMiSeS iF You KNoW YouR GoNNa BReaK iT !!!

2004-10-04T13:10:00.000-07:00

FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT !!!Thats all me and yoyo do this past few days...promised me not to work but in the end...BUBBLE !!!

YeH YeH !!! BiRTHDaY GoT CHaLeT...!!!

2004-10-03T16:00:00.000-07:00

3pm
stupid aloha!why so many people book so early.No FAIR,man!really wanted that seaview bungalow for MY BIRTHDAY...well,its ok anyway,at least i got the COSTA SANDS RESORT (Pasir Ris).Better than nothing.Cant wait for all my cousins to come down and celebrate my birthday with them...
4pm
back at home from pasir ris...so tired!just got back and had to rush to work...as usual going to meet yoyo to walk to cwp together gether.....wonder what i have to do today...